Chere Allie

I walked close to her, and reached my hand to her face. It was cold, and her face was pale…and tired. Somehow, in her deepest sorrow, she knew how to make a guy crazy about her.
I pulled her close, and we buried our heads over each other’s shoulders. The tears melted inside our cloths, and in the silence the only ghost was the sound of the Lake. I closed my eyes, and softly ran my hands on her back. She was petite under my hands, and her heart beat as fast as mine.
In the sea, far away, a man kayaked a small canoe, around a light house. The image was far off, but definitely there, and I could see it. The chirping of the birds began over the water, over the silence and made their ways under the dark silent stars.
“So this is how loving feels?”
When I pulled her back before my eyes, those were the words she began with.
She wiped away her tears, trying to calm herself…but the sadness was definitely there in her eyes, still…
“You don’t have to say yes…you can choose to live your life, but I want you to know, no matter what, and where you are…I’ll always love you…just like this sun, unto this mar, beseech and shine so fair, I’ll love you like and with this righteous plague. You have become my daily air Allie, and without you in my life, I’m not sure how I’m going to survive.”
“You can’t do this, I don’t deserve this…”
I ran my hand through her face; it was cold…just like the air on the dock.
“Please, don’t do this to me…”
She brought her hands to her face and peacefully walked away from my point.
I shouted out her name, she stopped and I heard the tears in her throat.
“I’m sorry, Allie…”
She turned to face me with redden eyes, and brought her hands down…
“You cannot love me, Poe, you just can’t…”
What?
“What do you mean I can’t…? Why can’t I love you? I know we’re different, and there’s a difference between us, but I don’t care Allie, I never have…I care about you…nothing will ever change that, not even you. After all, the difference is what going to make us strong.”
“There’s a reason why you can’t…”
Sadness had suddenly conquered her voice, and anger of knowledge conquered my eyes…
Loving her, was the easiest thing in my life, why couldn’t I love her for one night?
“I know you’re moving, and all…but I’ll go there, I’ll walk the thousands miles, just to see you…”
“Please, stop…”
“I love you more than anything I ever had; you’re everything...to me…”
“You don’t understand!” she broke into tears…
” Poe I’m really sick!”
“It doesn’t matter Allie, everything will work out just fine, everything…”
“See, you don’t understand”
“Understand what!? There’s nothing to understand Allie!”
“Leave me alone!” she buried her face in her hands
“Why are you doing this? I don’t know what else to believe anymore”
”Because…!” she returned her gaze on me, and her face was pale
“Because what? Allie, tell me now!”
Her eyes stayed on mine, and she said the words that had changed everything…the way I lived, thought, dreamed, and breathed. Those words became monuments inside of me…
“I’m dying soon, I’m dying real soon”