The Darkness

It exploded into my life
Like a dropped bag of flour
Covering all it touched
With a dark cloying mass
A simple mistake of trusting
A little to much
A little to far
A little to readily

It suppressed me
Causing me to hide in my safe place
Until the creature passed
Its minions lost my scent
Despair entered like a cloak of treacle
Viscidly omnipresent
Choking my thoughts and my breathing
Uncontrolled gasps escaped my mouth
As I fought to ‘not let go’

Release was to fast
Boundaries were ripped asunder
Not eased into gently
Doors could not be refastened
Push as I might they remained gapingly open
Allowing the monsters of the past
To scrape and claw at my soul’s skin
While my angel was held
Unable to help
Tears rolling down his face
In frustration echoing mine

Naturally chemically induced
I travelled to the dark place
Long hoped was gone
A simple pill
A simple acceptance
A foolish trust

So nature had to be called to battle nature
Liquid salvation of the flowers
Soothed my soul
Quelled the tears
Returned me to a more manageable heartache
Allowing me to settle and regroup
Breathe and interact
Soft wings embraced me
As the portal to the darkness
Clanged shut once more
Separating me from the demon
That threatened to devour me once more