My Secret

There’s something I’m hiding that I cannot say,
It’s my little secret that wont go away.
It’ll be with me always, till the day that I die,
I just wish it wouldn’t have to make me lie.

Secrets are hard when you cannot share
How much they can change you and make you despair.
They eat away at you when you sleep at night.
They make life seem like its one big fight.

I want to tell someone, but I’m not allowed!
But I can’t help it, and I’m not proud.
Nothing can help me change things around,
But I feel so lost, and I long to be found.

I wish someone could help me, but there’s no hope.
I need to tell someone ‘cos I just can’t cope.
There’ll be no happy ending at the end of this story,
No hero’s welcome or eternal glory.

For my story will go unspoken, unheard of, unknown,
It won’t be written down on paper or stone,
So I want to put it down somehow on here,
You don’t know the full story, but know my fears.

I know what will happen; it’ll all turn out wrong,
I might be remembered someday in a sad song.
But that’s it really, that’s all I’ll be,
A tear in someone’s eye from a memory.

I want to be more than a memory, though,
And in your mind I want to grow
Into more than a person who’s keeping things hidden,
But a girl that’s in love, and who’s really smitten.

Now you know what the secret could be,
So keep me locked in your memories,
But remember, I’m real, and this is real life,
And hopefully soon, I’ll be free from all my strife.