Love is Binding

Tonight I looked up to the brightest star in the sky and made a wish. I asked him to help me let go. To let go of the love I hold for my husband. It is like a torcher that binds us together. A chain that cannot be broken. I am burdened by its strength that won't give in.

I press heart shaped sandwiches for his lunch and pack a treat to get him through a long day at work. He is clean shaven and leaves not in his overalls, but in his newly ironed shirt. He smells sweet, his scent clinging to my clothes as he kisses me goodbye.

On his return he does not wish to moan about his hard day at work. He is jolly and fresh faced. He has a sparkle in his eye and a bounce in his walk. Perhaps this is a new man, the one I've always longed for, maybe he cares for me after all.

He takes a sip of his tea and tells me of the lady he has met. She is closer to his age. She ticks all his boxes. They have spent time together before and they know so much about one another. He is calm and he has a proud look about him.

My heart jumps into my throat and for a moment I cannot breathe. I try to stretch the corners of my mouth at a pathetic attempt of a smile. My brow is sweaty and my stomach is churning. Everything looks fuzzy behind the tears and I can't swallow. I take the lead and call the dog.

Squelching through the mud under the dark sky, I look up to the stars.
I beg of you, brightest star, grant me my wish so that I maybe free. Un do these chains and let me go. Take this pain from my heart and rid me of this binding love.