My way.

I haven’t always been this way
Sucking the life out of every day
I guess its just my way of dealing with things
I’m unwilling to acknowledge the wonders that life brings
Im not going to open that door
I wont surrender to life's lure

Don’t pity me, I have a strong mind
But after a while grief begins to grind
I’m scared to open my eyes
I wont fall victim to the sky’s
I don’t want to see
I know I’m not in the same place that I used to be

I feel like I’m in a tropical rain-forest with my eyes closed
I feel completely exposed
My senses are stimulated and waiting for me
To unlock my eyelids with that metaphoric key
They just need to give me time
Let me stake a claim on what’s truly mine

My surroundings are so serene
But then my thoughts careen
And turn this perfect landscape into something dark
Intruding every crevice of every trees bark
But sparing my forgotten heart
I've been pulling it behind me like a cart

I’m given a chance to be part of something great
Only to open my eyes and find out -
I’m too late