Statement: Carpe Diem, everything on the table

Greetings.  Thanks for reading.

While I'm in the outward communicaton mode, there are a few more things I should say.  I have no ties whatsoever with Russia, though I have lived life, encountered various foreigners...  but actually virtually no Russians.  I once knew a Ukranian woman, a dear friend, but...  I haven't been influenced by the KGB or whatever.

Life can be hard, but I love America and I'm grateful for the love America has shown me.  I know it's been a rough road at times.  I am currently in a state of weakness, and need in some ways 'to be taken care of...'  If this is too much to ask, I'm willing to die.  There's no need for dishonor for any one.  But please spare my children.  

This is the state of disability...  it's not right to keep the disabled alive but in a sub-human condition.  Nor, though courage is desirable and perhaps have some claim to it, can we reasonably be asked to be quite as valiant as the physical and unbattered(struggle will do that to you....)  We are 'invalids...' intellectuals, artists  "Frail...  couldn't much work with my hands" - Sean Carter

Politically, as I mentioned I'm an unconventional liberal, but I am a liberal, and also a libertine of sorts. I do not personally judge other people's sex lives.  Women may have a right to be offended by Trump's comments or by the Lewinsky scandal etc; I never was. 

There have been times in my life when I was strong and and capable of accomplishing, dominating etc...  One of them was during the Sanders movement...  and to be very clear, we were treated corruptly and badly by both the press and the Democratic Party, which we were and are part of.  But that's one reason I've moved on a little more easily than some Democrats...   

I identify with artists, innovators, the disabled, with mavericks, with priests and preachers, with minorities, with marginalized people in general to some extent...  I cry at movies and at life at times.  How deep does it run?  When you've seen a lot of the best and worst of life, I mean the very best and very worst, and you know that your future may be grand or non-existent, that much is up to God...  you come to live somewhat in the moment, for better and for worse.  Now is the time...  that we have for sure.  We try to make a difference, to enjoy, to contribute...  I am not one of those young people who can really 'wait my turn' in the bigger picture.

In conclusion, thank you and God bless you.  Xingyu to you  ('good fortune' in Chinese)