whisper

what words are in me

my soul is restless

 

people.

not those people

talk.

not about that

him.

but another him

feel.

not those feelings

please

not those feelings

 

distract. divert. look away.

close them off.

shut. lock. forget.

 

what did you say

i don’t know

where am i

where am I

what was i saying

i don’t know

 

what is

i

am?

restless

 

anchor. center. focus.

on what

on who

and why

drifting is dangerous

danger is driftwood

here

gone

fleeting

 

deception

the appearance of weight

the reality is triviality

unknown

until i choose

until i lift

like nothing

thrown to the current

to the waves

gone

as if they never were

 

were they

where

when

why can’t i

remember

 

there was danger

danger

Danger

hide

run

away

away

to where

inside

 

explain the ease of

Good, and you?

when i am

breaking

all i feel is empty ache

but

Good, and you?

 

because there is no time

 

how many words

fit between three squares

of sidewalk

will you pause

if i pause

late

Late

run

away

 

direction

possess direction

never lose it

never drift

calm

concentrated

infinitely potent

unsure of direction

unsure of purpose

still

never drift

never pause

 

there will be another

another sidewalk

another movement

of the lips

and a

Good, and you?

but do not pause

for i will not pause

hide

inside

behind

the words

 

my soul is restless

what words are in me

will you pause

lose direction

drift with me

drifting is dangerous

danger is weightless

throw it to the waves

will you pause

with me

with my words