falling body

thank you for always

providing the resilience to go on

thank you for granting me perseverance, charisma

and the insight to hear what providence has to say

thank you for stranding me here

amid this ocean of instances

so precious and violent,

so lonely…

*

thank you for making the air

and the clouds

and the translucency of reality

indistinguishable enough

that I might switch tomorrow for yesterday

or keep a single evening from long ago

reverberating in the depths of my heart

*

thank you for showing me what absolute happiness is

and then hiding it away from me

thank you

for allowing me to grasp my inner fortitude

and utilise it to the utmost

*

thank you for making me deformed and strange

so that I may never know true completeness

thank you for tingeing each hour of my life

with an intrinsic sadness

and a perpetual desire for the void

*

thank you

for offering me the power to overcome myself

to travel far and make my wishes come true

thank you for filling me with the ambition to be successful

but not the talent to achieve it

*

thank you for the faculty to appreciate the scent of ethyl,

burning cedar from a winter’s chimney

and the salt water breeze coming off a beach at twilight

thank you for allowing me to fall

through the brink of consciousness,

to have seen the faces I’ve seen

and heard the music I’ve heard

*

thank you for not revealing all the answers

so that I may wake up one morning

on the other side of now

and realise that one is never

more or less than the total sum

of their dreams