Wednesday's wonderings

Wednesday 14 August. Welcome to my life. Back here again, but not
for much longer. It's sinking in sloooowwwwllly that I'm really going
to leave.

Got a bit upset last night, feel silly about it now. Things usually
seem better in the morning. Sounds crazy but I get worried about my
father getting worried - a whole spiral of worrying, about
nothing.

Bad news from the dentist yesterday. He said a couple of my fillings
are "obsolete". My father said he was obsolete too and that it was my
mother's fault. She said earlier that she'd like an eternity ring and
she'd been waiting an eternity for one. He said it was a waste of
money. How unromantic. I wish they were nicer to each other. This
weekend they are coming to stay with us. What have I let myself in for?
They go home on Sunday and then we are seeing Rug's mother who is also
being challenging in a different way; this is worrying Rug which is
worrying me worrying about him and I am also worrying directly about
her and it all. Ahhhhh!

Lovely Rug is away in Antwerp again, coming back tonight, but I won't
see him until tomorrow. Really looking forward to it. Hope he's feeling
better.

21 more commutes into central London. That's really not many
considering I've been doing it for 5 and a half years. I'm starting to
look forward to leaving and not being so scared about it any more.