CROSSROADS

CROSSROADS

They were the happiest years of my childhood
The first ten years of my life
I cling to those years so deep in my heart
For with out them who would I be?

During those years I learned to smile laugh and love
I was barefoot and carefree,
I leapt with out fear into my world of imagination
And in my dreams my world I concurred.
During these years the best of me was formed.

These are the worst years of my childhood
The next six years of my life
Malice animosity and fury broke down the doors
Of my perfect world

Resulting in disappointment and spitefulness
All I had known suddenly disappeared
I imagined, dreamed and created a way to survive
I began to write, paint, drink and smoke.

The carefree child had become a loner self -confined to her room
Where in here creations her world was once again the same.
During these years I formed a hardened shell
Little did I know it would mature into strength.

Alone and confused
I stood sadly in the center of my life
Rewinding and playing each aspect over and over again.
I eagerly pondered my short life.

It was during this process that I became whole.
All of my good had merged with my bad
The fog had lifted and the sun rose bold
My first theory was thought and understood.

You must know love to enjoy happiness,
You must suffer disappointments to gain strength,
You must embrace imagination and the ability to dream,

For without them¦

What is your motivation to enjoy or survive,
What life has to offer?

AJLH 2002