30th DEC 2009 blog

I have been writing my autobiography. It sounds mad to me, never mind anyone else. Perhaps that's why I get permanent Disability Living Allowance. People would rather think I was mad than face the truth. But these things happen. OK, not all the time... At least they are not discovered all the time. We just had a case of paedophiles making and distributing shit here in the UK. And what about all those priests?
Of course all of us in the western world have been socialised by the church and governments to think one shouldn't really have sex. Which made it naughty, rebellious, exciting. Now people need more from their porn, because they can't do it unless they shouldn't. Rape videos, beating videos, children, snuff movies... There is even a thing called Vomit Porn, for god's sake! I mean, really.
How fucked up is everybody? Golden Showers? Faeces? Necrophilia will be the next big thing, you mark my words. Its disgusting.
My generation knew different but they won't admit anything and lie for the rest of their lives. It doesn't do your kids any good for you to lie to them, you know. I never lied to mine. Why would I? But then I have never done anything I'm too ashamed to admit to. I went to festivals, I had lots of sex, I took loads of drugs - weed, speed, acid - lovely stuff. Why lie about it. By telling my kids I believe I prevented them from taking the shithead route in life.