ONCE I FLEW TO THE EDGE OF THE UNIVERSE

"Rome didn't matter, or come off -
But heaven and hell did." The Fall

I love this song but I think he is wrong. Rome is still everywhere. Their idea of what Jesus was or meant has permeated all cultures, to the detriment of those cultures. Jesus said one didn't need priests and churches, that one could talk to God direct. Jesus said that we shouldn't work but let the Lord provide. Of course, until 'ownership' started there was enough for everyone. I'm not a communist but I know how nature works. We say 'human nature' as if it is different to other animals. Its not. One only has to watch a group of toddlers to see human nature in action.
Baby 1. "Give me that toy!"
Baby 2 "No! Its mine.!"
Baby 1 - WHACK on the head of Baby 2 with a metal dumpster truck.
Baby 2 "Ow. Boohoo!" Drops toy and Baby 1 goes off with it.
Sound familiar? We socialise human nature out of our children, or we try to.

We also fill their heads with ideas such as Hell, Santa Claus, fairies and magic. How Christian is that? "God helps those who help themselves!" was an adage I grew up with. The idea of 'God' that we are given is false. It was invented by a little man who felt powerless and resented that fact. He decided to get his own back and made sex the worst sin of all. Sex, the reason we are all here! Stupid. One man, one woman - well he would say that never having got laid for free. And it stopped all the Alpha males from breeding too many offspring. The inventor of religion wanted no opposition. I mean, how horrible would God have to be to give us all a sex-drive only to make sex a sin. He'd have to be pretty shit, resentful maybe? But God would have no need of such resentment would he? ergo - it is a man's rule.

In 1972 I felt that we were approaching the end of Western civilisation as we know it. I also commented on the changing climate. People pooh-poohed me but its happening now. I don't think I can tell the future but I am cursed with not just a high I.Q. but also a vivid imagination. The two together form what would once have been thought of as foretelling the future. Not so. It is rapid extrapolation. My brain does it the way it does maths and other shit. Very fast. I know that nine nines are 81, I don't have to do the sum. I know how to spell anti-disestablishmentarianism without thinking. I can walk, talk climb etc. without thinking. It is all the same thing for me.

I believe in a force outside of myself of which we are all a part. I have had visions and dreams that I could say were sent by a god but I actually think they were rapid extrapolations of rational thought; too fast for real comprehension.

Once - in my brain - I flew to the edge of the universe. I saw the void from the very edge; I was the void, undulating in nothing. In my centre, roughly where my womb is there was a spiral of stars going upwards. They went a certain distance and then they winked out but new ones came into existence as older ones went out. I felt a feeling of extreme peace and of total love for the galaxies streaming from me. I had taken no drugs whatsoever.

It was one of the most wonderful experiences of my life.; second only to the births of my sons and granddaughters.