Fighting You

Finding the courage was the hardest thing to do
I have been pushed to the ground
My face covered in dust, blinded
I could not see the truth


Maturity, growth, a little age
Helped me wipe my eyes
From the hurt and pain
from what I thought was normal and tolerable


I was so young, so innocent
I didnt know what to do
But there is so much a person can take
Until emotion erupts from the inside


Embarrassment, humiliation, mortification
Is all I knew
Hiding people from the terror
That I desperately keep a secret


I hate the screaming, the foolish fights
No reason, No Point
Continues
On and On


It carries on
The embarrasment, the fear
Tears roll endlessly
My cheeks constantly stained


Emotion runs freely
When I am alone
I collapse


Others suffer when around you
Your careless, greedy and selfish
Criticism, your worst enemy


There is no such thing as rational
A "normal family talk"
Your rage bursts when ever you like
We just have to suffer


We are bruised inside
You dont see
Nothing is wrong
Lets be a happy family


Are we happy?
Are we true?
I forgot the meaning a long time ago
Can I be reminded


Will you ever get the message?
Will you ever understand?
The damage you are creating
The harm you are causing


I am lost in sadness
Fighting you will carry on
I am not afraid of you anymore
You cannot take advantage


You are my blood
That gives you no reason
So stop your childish ways
And treat me like a human


People around you are seeing the real you
Your damage has a bad effect
pain and suffering in many ways
Something you dont understand


Fighting you will carry on
Until then end of our days
You may not ever see
The outcome of your ways