Stupid love mistakes

Its going to happen so many times in my life.
I know that for sure.
Its only unfortunate that I probably wont know when it will hit.
When I feel that life has turned its back on me.
That it is so painful emotionally... that it turns into physical
pain.
It will hurt to smile.
I have learnt the hard way.
I had to get hurt more than once to learn that the heart is a fragile
thing.
That there are people out there that dont care about my feelings.

I feel so happy, so content, so In love.
And with out realising it I am crashed to the ground and my feelings,
emotions and heart are going to be crampled to the ground.
Do they really care how I feel? Or how I ever felt?
They want to stay friends. Is it really possible? To carry on a
friendly conversation knowing
that this person didnt think twice about my feelings and what he was
going to lose.

They say they are sorry and that feel so guilty. Do they really mean it
or are they
saying those things so we dont scream at them or burst into
tears.
Do they care at all? I am sure there are a few that really do mean
it.
I am sick of the hurt, the feeling of being unloved.
The feeling of someone else being better than me.
I want to feel special.
I want to feel loved!
Is that worng?

I am not sure anymore
I know may people who have felt this way. I have given them comfort
without
knowing what they are feeling.
Now I know.
It is just life i guess?
Poeple say to stop thinking about it and move on.
Is it possible?
Is it so easy
I think not.
It comes and goes.
I never want to feel like that again.
But I will.
I will learn.
I have learnT.
The hard way.
I fall inlove to easily.
I give my heart out and allow them to do what they please.
It is not fair.
I would never ever do that.

Heart Break. Such a quick feeling but a long time to heal.