celestial bodies - or - death in the rain

as i lay on the path looking up at the stars
hearing blurred noises reveberated in bars
i never really knew, never really saw
now i can see i pray for just one moment more
just to gaze peacefully up into celestial infinity
mind racing as i try take in as much of this divinity
the noise becomes clear and lights pulse and beat
the purest of blue illuminating the street
i always told my kids save till last the best
and so, serenly peaceful i am as someone beats on my chest
flashing back to now feeling sudden pain
the wet on my face is it my blood or rain
i feel so cold such a rush of emotion
i want to scream out for help but just cant raise the notion
this thing welling inside me is my deepest of fear
ill never see my kids again, i just want them near
wheres my mum and dad is this it for me
looking back to the stars is now all i see
all i can feel now is a tear in my eye
as it blurs all the stars i could see in the sky
i want to go home and say all is ok
but as things get darker, i know this is my last day
the panic has gone all thats left now is the tear on my cheek
and the fading look in my eyes as the stars i did seek
are still there reflecting in the tears in my eyes
but the look is just glassy and my spirit just dies
the drunk holds his head with deep immortal gaze
thinking a stupid mistake just ended my days
its all like a dream to him can this be real
all this commotion is too much for him to deal
a tear wells up in his eye just like mine
but behind his tear his eyes still have shine
he doesnt see light as i did, in this street full of dark
all he need do is look up to the spark
of the light in the sky that captured my pain
and held it for me while i died in the rain

c d lee