I died in 2006

I died in 2006.
Oh I’m still here sitting in front of the PC writing this; I’m not a zombie, one of the undead but I died in 2006 all the same.
I still breath, I eat, and I sleep (occasionally). My heart still beats within my chest; touch me and my skin is warm.
But look into my eyes, look close and look deep there is an emptiness there I see it myself when I can bring myself to look in the mirror.
When I see those eyes staring back at me they’re hollow, soulless.
Because of you.

You gave me the greatest gift its possible to receive. I’m not talking about endless wealth or absolute power; I speak only of a look.
But a very special look.
A look that said ‘I love you.’ A look that said ‘I will always love you no matter what you do, what you say or where you go.’ You gave me that gift not just once but every day for ten years. It nourished me; sustained me. It made me a better person than I thought that I could ever be.
But the fates were fickle and death a chasm I cannot cross. But we are bound you and I; a bond that not even the reaper and his scythe could sever. We are joined still for when you closed your eyes that final time as I held you; when your soul flew to that better place it took with it the greater part of mine.
My heart beats yet, I still draw breath but my bed is empty without you; my life without meaning. I try every day to be the man you wanted me to be, the man you saw when you gave me that look; the man you made of me.
Now I walk this road alone; one step after the other and look always to the horizon and the setting sun where I see you waiting. Now I must finish the journey without you until this road takes me home.