Who's fault ..

Stepping away from familiar behaviors
is something l'll try hard to do.
The texting to ask,
'Have you kept off the sauce?'
Or calling his number to say
'How are you?'

Situations around me, l cannot control.
One man in a pub and the other is cold.
I seem to be in a perpetual worry
about these two people who are in my life.
Instead of the happiness others are basking in
I have anxiety, headaches and strife.

It's all in the cards, lifestyle's are dramatic.
Jumping the hurdles keeps me on my toes.
As long as l can l'll check-in, quite discreetly,
to see that these men aren't suffering lows ..