Hormonal Male

Blokes aren't supposed to be emotional and certainly not hormonal.  Yet my adult life seems to be one long roller-coaster of emotions.  The traditional gender-based roles still linger, but most have been examined and found wanting.

I cry at Strictly, I weep with emotion every time I replay Susan Boyle's emotional debut on national tv.  I feel emotion more keenly as the years advance.  So I ask, is this age?  Grumpy men are traditionally older in years and I must admit, I'm good at that bit, but cry at the soppy bits?

All I can do is live with these emotions and enjoy them I suppose.  Embrace them rather than curse them.  A big part of me actually dreads being heartless and unfeeling.  Yet I wish I could control them.  The problem is that the right emotion seems to evade me and I cannot command how I should feel. 

I hear people saying "but that's emotion...it's a free spirit!" and I can't dissagree.  Still, certain situations call for certain reactions and my true emotion always betrays me.  Nor can I predict how I will feel in a given circumstance. 

The truth is, I don't care anymore.  I am what I am and that will not change.  Well, the reactions and emotions may change, but the unpredictability of what will surface is a random thing for me and long may it be so.