Idiot

you tend to say things you shouldn't
when your faces are pressed close enough
to share each other's breaths

You tend to make promises you know you don't want to keep
declarations you're too small to live up to
I'm fine, I'm strong
We can do this
I don't want anyone else
Even if I don't have you
For a year
Or two
Maybe even three
I can do it
As long as I still have you
On the phone
Or in my emails
Photographs, stolen vacations
Brief embraces in the airport
That's enough

No it's not
and I am not
this will never
but let's lie to each other
let's fool ourselves
into this promise
that I know I can't keep
If I can't take days without you,
years I will not survive