A - IDENTITY

The day I was conceived in my mother's womb, I knew that after some
months I would be enrolled into the extended population of my
country.

I was born as a full stop. Gradually I grew in size. The place where I
grew to get my features was a very safe and sound place. So secured was
I, getting all the food and nourishment from my mother without even
having to ask for it. The regular checkups with the doctor , spoke of
my safe growth which kept, me, my mother and the others happy.

After having spent nine months and a few days in the safest place on
this earth, I saw the light of the day. At the doctors' clinic, I was
delivered into this world to exist as an independent individual. The
physical attachment to my mother was detached with the cutting of the
cord. I entered into this world, going into the records of as
daughterhood. The category I came into did not please the elders of my
family.Mygrandmothergrandfather,father ,uncle , aunt and many others
would have been very happy if I would have come to their family in the
category of other sex _____ which they felt that to be of the strong
and one having a better identity. However unwelcome I was in their
heart yet my sweet innocent face lured them and attracted them towards
me. My innocence brought about the strong relationship I adhered to
them to come very close and a sweet attachment developed. But in one
small corner of their heart I felt they were missing the coming of
someone they would have liked very much.

My mother was the only one who wholeheartedly loved me. The whole of
her heart was for me. She did not keep aside a small part with
expectation for someone else. After all she was someone like me, but in
full maturity.

After coming to this earth I was very much cared for, for to become
independent it does take some years. My cries were attended to and my
regular daily activities were very much looked after, catering to all
my needs. After all I have come to this earth and duty speaks, I need
to be nourished properly so that I can remain healthy and grow up to be
strong and beautiful.

Very soon I became a toddler and then a child whose fundamental basic
right to education came. I was given the best of education that could
be afforded. But in other facilities the ones' this world held strong
were given a better preference and listed on top above the ones'
belonging to my gender. Soon I could perceive the distinction which was
clearly indicative. I attained puberty. Restrictions were pressed upon
me, I was thought to be weak. The regular life carried on, I went from
school to college and then I entered into a job. I remained a
second-class citizen before the world no matter how worthy I proved
myself to be.

The day came, when I was married off. I went to live in another house,
leaving behind all my early thoughts of the house to which I had once
belonged. From the day I stepped into my second home, I was told that
this was mine. I made this my own, the previous one being only
remembrances.

However similar in activities, I was with my male counterpart yet I had
to bear the extra burden. Apart from the outside work the sole
authority of looking after the minutest intricacies of the household
was burdened on my shoulders. Having been gifted with 'motherhood' I
was one to conceive and bring to light upon this earth my next
generation. Everything I digested very smoothly. My birthright speaks
of this, because I am very strong and powerful.

With the forbearance of all the burdens, the greatest gift of God
bestowed to me ___ yet I am considered as the weaker section of
humankind. My duty tells me that I have to keep my mouth shut and carry
on and on and on .

Days, months, years passed and my skin showed signs of drooping. Now
nature could say, where I stood. My childhood, adolescence, womanhood
had ripened and I wait to go back to the earth from where I have come
.

In all these years what I have got - a glimpse of this beautiful world,
I myself the most beautiful creation of God. Had I not been brought to
this earth, who could have showed the light to others. The word
'Mother' what is it ____ something so divine, so sublime, so
progressive, so tolerant so loving, so caring
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What has the world given me. I have to cry out for my entity when I
have everything similar to those who think me to be a second-class
creation. I am told to be the better half. But how ? In this big and
wonderful world I have to search for my identity whereas without my
presence the world would have been barren.

I am the girl child, the woman, the lover, the caring, the considerate,
the mother.I am identified in thenameof 'motherland'. So don't cry at
my entry to this world but accept me with open arms, for I can give you
everything that you need. I am my own entity.