Thirteen Letters. Chapter Sixteen.

Tonight, was to be my final questions and answers session, before a live studio audience, I was asked, towards the end, “Is there anything you would like to add that I haven’t asked you, concerning the thirteen letters?”

I was ready with my reply, for I had given it much thought recently. I looked him straight in the eyes and said, “Growing up, I didn’t believe in god, I thought he was made up, a myth! I had wanted prayers to be answered before, and they never were. I had lived through desperate times. But still there was nothing, just an emptiness.”

“Yet, the night before I had decided to end it all, in the outer world, the unseen world, the unexplained, things were happening that I didn’t foresee. I was oblivious to another realm, I really thought I was alone. But unbeknown to me, there was a higher being, this higher being, knew my deepest thoughts, knew my desperations, my hurts, my anxieties, my worries and cares. Thoughts I just couldn’t explain to another person. They would not understand, or be able to help. I felt no hope, I had come to the end.”

“What got me over and over again, was the timing! Tomorrow would have been too late. The dream came to me, at just the right time, and every single thing, every single detail, happened exactly as I had dreamt it.”

“I see myself as an intellectual man, a realist. But who was I going to argue with, when everything in my dream came true? And for the better. I can’t explain my past, and I can’t explain why I Paul Anderson had that dream that changed the whole of my life, but it did.”

“Not only did it all change my life, it connected me to Maxine Jasmin-Green. We are SO opposites in every single way. We are poles apart. Yet we were brought together, that I can’t deny.”

“One day, in the studio, when I was singing to one of the songs, that Maxine had chosen, I came to a realisation, that the higher being has a name. Maxine had talked about him often and had given me little, adult cartoon booklets to read, one of them was called, The Assessment.”

“As I sang, the song, Adore, I started to cry, not because I was sad, but because, it suddenly all made sense.”

“That the being that I thought was just something out there, far, far, away was near me and, all along he had wanted to have a personal relationship with me, and for me to have a personal relationship with him.”

Kevin was there, and asked me, “Would like to say the Sinners Prayer?” Tearfully I replied, “Yes.”

“We left the studio and went into another room, next door, it was just us in there, Kevin said to me, “Would you like to begin a relationship with Jesus today?” I was more than ready, and replied, “Yes.” Kevin said, “Repeat after me,” So I did. “Lord Jesus Christ, I am sorry for the things that I have done wrong in my life. I ask Your forgiveness. Thank You for dying on the cross for me to set me free from my sins. Please come into my life and fill me with Your precious, Holy Spirit and be with me forever. Thank you, Lord Jesus, Amen.” I felt peaceful. He now became my God.”