I Should Have Been Different

I Should Have Been Different

It doesn't seem right
How easily you can walk away
Leaving me here, stationary, unable to move,
Reach out, pursue,
And it doesn't seem fair how you can play
With all these sleepless nights,
Throwing my dreams away,
And it's your imprint in these black circles undereye,
You I'm drinking in these constant cups of caffeine,
You that is my witness as I sweat
The hot summer nights alone here, in my head,
And when I look in the mirror,
It's your face that reflects.

They tell me it gets easier, my friends,
But what do they know?
They have never been in love with you -
Besides, I do not think that the regret
Over the things I did not do
Will ever go -
I should have been different
In my loving of you.