Take a leap of faith & close the door behind me

Ever been tied down?
Everywhere to go and
still going no-where
all for one for you.

The risks and prizes,
probability and luck,
oppurtunity, chances,
I just feel so stuck.

So many possibilities,
running through minds,
leaping out of a hope,
only to be crushed in.

O no! Is it just me,
I feel so sick of it,
I keep holding back,
and letting you down.

I'm sorry, I hold us,
both back, just you,
if am I holding you,
back, I don't want it.

Why can't I move on?
Can't be anything I,
left unfinished here,
left so far behind me.

Except for my deep,
my deep dark lake,
I keep forgetting,
been frozen so long.

Playing with fire now,
emotional to consider,
others keep a thought,
if unsure, do nothing.

Anyone could help me,
with other decisions,
this one's all my own,
and weighting me down.

I just keep thinking,
someone elses future,
it could depends on me
guilt, causes urgency,

Am I overeacting now?
Is this all paranoia,
caused by a suspicion,
fueled my imagination.

Let me look at details,
take it all carefully,
one small step a time,
get it over with soon.

Tell them all I know,
let them give advice,
politely decline it,
I just want to leave.

Choose the right time,
leave at the right one,
all try to hold us down,
& turn our world around.

We are ready to leave,
I just have my faith,
I can make this leap,
I am ready to finish.

I want to finish it now.
Then we can all move on.