stuck

Pain has bought me to this point, 
the pain you inflicted upon me,
they say you hurt the ones you love,
but how can that be true when the last thing i would ever do is put my boy through this pain, 
and all i have ever done is love you,
your words are so sweet,
they reel me in everytime,
if i pull our the hook you have so deep in my heart it will hurt more than i can explain but in time it will heal,
if i leave it where it is it will continue to pull at and make tares in my already fragile heart, 
i am unsure if i can bare to lose you,
i am unsure of how to solve this lose-lose situation.