Stuck in Checkmate

Hot tears melt

on my reddened face

will this forever be my fate?

crushed by my own emotions

denied by those who I love

denied by those who I had trusted

most choose not to see

the rotting core

that the girl they once knew

is no longer there

I want to unload my grief

on someone who chooses to see

chooses to see

I need to stop

putting myself in checkmate

whenever I try to play

why can't I win

feet off the ground

not flying

falling

I walk a lonly road

it's broken and cracked

with weeds and moss

peeking through the crevices

should I keep walking

if it ends

everytime

too invested

I can't seem to crack the code

can't move the peices

to the right places

I put myself into checkmate

when ever I try to play