Me

I havent had the best upbringing, i didnt have the best childhood, i didnt have a close nit family who were always talking about what they did that day at the family dinner table, what i dont want now is sympathy.

As a child growing up, my excitement was very little the best bit about me day was for thoes two seconds just before you realise where you are, then is dawns upon you that this is your life and as a young child all you can really think of is, this is my life and this is the best its going to get. this was my life untill i went away for a few years, overseas it was, it was to say the least really nice, but at the time i was a young teenager who never apreciated anything, but wanted everything, i came back from being overseas and tried my hardest to be the perfect child to my family but as im forever reminded to them i am the dissapointment, i am the let down, to be honest to say i was the black sheep wouldnt be too far from the truth. i know friends who have had worse im not saying my life is by far the worst, but to me it wanst nice. by the time i was in my early 20's i had made many mistakes but at the time hadnt learned from them, i had a rollercoaster relationship with my family, and again i thought that everything i did was for the best.

i moved away many a times, tried to run hoping that running would solve all the problems and make them go away, but all that running eventually caught up with me, and at that poit i decided to turn my life around, i made the choice to take the steps to make my life better, little by little. with each step life was rewarding me although very slowly, it started working, i did good things not for anyone else but me so what if i was selfish sometimes in life, as i found out, you just have to be, my life was going from good to better, from strength to strenght, i settled down and made my own family and with that i have promised my self that my family will never go through what i did.

my family are happy, and close, we all talk at the family dinner table, when they grow up i hope they take from there childhood what i hope i have given them which is good things actually come if you try and work hard enough for it, look at me!

i started with a not so good life and after too many years of bad and making mistakes i turned my life around and look at me now, Happy! thats all i have to say

Im just Happy!!!