A: 6/3/2004

It would be so much easier if I could figure out who I am.
I have to go offline in 5 minutes. I don't want to. The inter is my
safety net. I'm not secure doing homework. I feel so alone. And then
there's my piano practice I have to do. About an hour because otherwise
I'm going to fail my exam.
Berlioz, you damn sexy composer, you, I love your music. I could listen
to that song cycle forever.
Or the Moonlight Sonata, alternatively (although that's not
Berlioz)...or Chopin Preludes. Ok too much choice now.
Will go cut my wrists to Liz Horseman. No. Have never... only touched
on. Not going to do it now, not give in, I'm not even depressed. Just
confused. it doesn't solve anything (don't I know it- not that I HAVE)
no. I don't know why I wrote that.
Must go. I won't. I promise. Don't worry. Not that there's anyone there
to worry.