Feelings

Feelings that are hurt and feelings that are sad twist and turn like a tornado that wreaks havoc on a soul.  Confusion strikes the weakest points in the mind.  ​The confusion questions "​Why did that person leave?  Why did she say I was at fault for liking music? Music is not evil!  Leaving my life over such a little regard is not cool.  Not cool at all.  She must be jealous.  Why would she act so close, almost like a sister, and then leave my life?  Music?  Or maybe it is because I am different.  Different as in I ask a million questions out of curiosity.  Is it because I am too curious?  Or because of another unknown reason?  Why do people judge?  Then, when I turned the tv on for comfort, the news flashes the world's problems in my face, deepening the cracks that embed my heart.  Why is the world so messed up?  How come I turn on the news and the images shown are like in a horror movie?"  Your heart breaks and you feel a sharp pain tightening your body up.  All of a sudden, you get a thought of relief that may help your feelings.  Your tense bosy shivers and relaxes as you reach for your phone.  Tears still blind your sight and you feel great frustration and defeat as you fail with the login several times.  Relief and victory seem to knock you off your feet when you are finally logged in and reaching the music app.  Great notes of calmness run shivers up and down your spine as your favorite song calls an anthem of "you can get through this."

Memories flash before you, burnt in your soul.  Laughter errupts in your soul from the friend you remember having good times with.  Repeatedly, like a broken radio, the question ​"Why did she leave?," ​pounds at your heart, making your heart weak.

The chorus of the song comes and your heart lifts, remembering your first concert.  This band's awestriking playing. With that, your mind is whisked off like a ballerina, finding secure ground.  You decide to text your friend that is like a sister to you.

"Hey.  How r u?" your simple but meaningful message says.

Moments pass. "Sister, I love you and miss you.  Want to meet me at my place for pizza?"

Thoughts lift up with your heart., "She replied! She replied!  Awe!  She misses me!  She still is there for me!  The whole world did not leave me!  Just because I lost one friend, does not mean I do not still have my other friends leaving!"

You smile and realize how feelings rule the world.  The news, your friend, you, and pizza are all affected by emotion.  "Pizza can be eaten or looked at in disgrace.  The news is like a domino effect.  Someone does one thing, feelings follow, and soon you have chaos.  The dominoes are just being knocked down right now.  Stand back up and straighten them and put them back in place, Kitten.," you tell yourself.