Homecoming

My mind is running from me,

I am scared to be left alone.

Please help me only

When you finally get home.

Now and then a year flies by.

Now and then I'll sleep.

Please come and help cure me.

In my head, so dark,

Where OCD has burned its own mark.

Bringing thoughts and shame,

And Kaiser said I was the one to blame.

I was scared and alone.

They made me feel like I was on my own.

Stuck inside my head,

I used to think I would rather be dead.

They destroyed my life.

They watched me burn and left me to die,

Until I saved myself,

And now I hope they won't hurt anyone else.

While I was in pain,

They filled my mind with burdens and shame.

They said I'm fucked up and likely insane,

And I'd never be alright again.

I had had my share.

I packed my bags and got out of there.

They made it hard to leave.

But all I felt was the sweet relief.

I got away from that horror show,

But my mind was still like a fucking war zone.

They wanted me back to pay more money,

But I didn't stop, I just kept running.

And I still stayed with their pills and tears

That were outdated by more than twenty years.

I'm not defensive, I'm on the attack.

I'll find someplace else, I'm not going back.