Sleepless nights

Spending sleepless nights, thinking the things so deep, that even I don’t understand. These thoughts consume me in a way I can’t explain, which makes me wonder that something is wrong with me. Every day, walking through the streets is becoming a challenge, continually trying to fit in, placing a mask of a happy face and acting like everything is fine. Leading to fear of rejection, making me push people further from me, as they won’t understand what I am going through and am unable to communicate the same to them. This is making me lose everyone along with myself. I am always trying to be the person I once was to make the things better as before. I search for something to grab to pull myself back up, but continuously failing on the same is causing me to fall deeper and deeper. These thoughts make me want to cry, which I try not to, because of the ego of being too strong to cry; nothing flows out of these eyes. I want someone to understand once what I am going through and tell me everything will be fine.