what to do?

I always wonder

who I am,

what I did myself in this life,

what is my significance,

but never got an answer from me,

I don't even remember how many times I failed in achieving what I want!

I don't even know how many times I disappointed myself, my parents and loved ones.

They never said anything.

But I know how bad they feel at my every failure.

I don't understand what should I do to make all these people feel proud of me.

How should I do such a thing that can overcome my all failures?

Today I have a chance in my hand.

Which I can't allow slipping away.

I am trying my best to get it, but don't know why I feel that's not enough.

But I have to do it this time without any failure on any cost.

And I 'll do it.