Dead End Affection Dilemma

It's half two in the morning and I'm not even yawning
Because I've got too much war in my mind.
A series of events that have made so many dents
In a heart that is so undefined,
And so much honesty has more than promised me
That mutual feelings have been denied,
So I can't turn my head and sleep in my bed
As my love has nowhere to reside.

Maybe expressing instead of over-stressing
Will help me see this mess clear,
But how I react when I face certain facts
Only brings more pain and more fear,
Because when this surprise started to arise
I could feel the love drawing near,
But to sustain a rejection and refrain from affection
Will only precede a reign of tears.

I'm learning a lesson so I ask this question;
Should have I ever loved at all?
You see, with love's absence and all this nonsense
Lonely's so cold it's not cool.
Adults undermining and too often reminding
That I'm too young and I'm being a fool
And you know maybe they're right, I can't win this fight;
I'm just not strong enough to stop this love rule.

So I lay here and sigh, rather than cry,
Because with crying I've had more than enough
And on more than one time I've said, "I'm fine"
But everyone knows that's a bluff.
I've been so nice and I've asked for advice,
I've even prayed guidance from up above.

So as i interrogate this mood i have to conclude,
That there is now no way out of this thing they call love...