"Silence"

Cherry

By Penny4athought

Sat, 11 Jan 2025
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11 comments
 

War inside my head explodes with feelings of disbelief and despair,

paralyzing me with debilitating sorrow

a sorrow painted by my anger at the unimaginable reality

He is gone and I’m still here, but I’m not alive

Lost,

Bleeding out;

the dagger in my heart twists unmercifully

Each memory of our years together condensed into pin pricks of images

I cannot touch you.

Your voice is silent but the silence fills our home.

A distracting silence

And I don’t know how to fill the void.  

Certificate 15
Poem
Philosophy

Comments

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

Penny4, There's nothing I can say except I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending you a huge hug. I hope you have people around you to look after you

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you insert- it is unimaginable, but yes I have my two sons and other family members to keep me focused. Still, every day I have pockets of struggle to get through. My younger son told me to write something today and so I tried to do that. My thoughts are difficult to corral but writing may be what I need to do, to find myself again and navigate this altered reality.

Penny4athought

Submitted by marandina on

So sorry for your loss, JoAnne. Life doesn't come much harder than the loss of a beloved partner. The pain is replaced my memories, in time. Take good care of yourself x

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Marandina, it is a strange time for me right now but you're right, eventually, the memories will comfort more than hurt...I hope. 

Penny4athought

Submitted by Rhiannonw on

So sorry. This all seems to have happened so quickly for you. Having good memories of course makes it harder. May the Lord comfort you and help you to rest in Him, and quietly trust for the coming day. much love, Rhiannon

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Rhiannon- I am holding a lot of hope in my heart for that trust in faith.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Di_Hard on

Your photo shows such a kind, fun, vibrant man. You write very powerfully. I am so sorry. Your wonderful children are with you, you will help each other.

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Di- He was the best part of me. That photo is of course a younger one but his face was much the same, no lines and always smiling that great smile. My sons, although going through a harsh grief too, are helping me stay strong.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Turlough on

I'm so very sorry to hear your sad news. I admire you for the way you have been able to put your feelings of loss into a poem, though I suspect there are no real words that would adequately describe the depth of your hurting. Memories of such a special loved one are things to treasure, so I hope yours will help you.

My very best wishes to you and your sons.

Turlough

Submitted by Kris on

 'Yesterday's, today's & tomorrow's. Its not a soul of love lost, its love & faith of souls that heal'....

That was told to me by a Nun...

So, I'm sending a prayer of faith & love & healing for a fellow member/writer here, the best I can, the only way I know how.

Quick Back Story on that phrase...

 In the village I live in, I walk past a chapel many centuries old almost everyday, sometimes I help the Nun`s clean a bit, move some heavy stuff around, fix a few things, etc....A few years ago I was in a cycle of grief & loss & shock . At 1st I thought those word 's ' were nice comforting words with a spiritual message. It turned out to be a lesson for me.... Peace be with you JoAnneheartangel

p.s. Phrase translated into English... hope it came out ok (indecision)

 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Dear Jo Anne, I've just finished reading your poem, I'm so, so sorry to hear this news. Wish I could reach out and give you a big hug, but as that's not possible, I can only say that my thoughts go out to you and I hope comfort is found with those around you.

Take comfort in his memory and stay strong.

Jenny.