Be carful What You Wish For!!!!!

This what I wished for
This isn't how I imagined it
Life on my own,
to the point of self imprisonment,
How ironic,isn't it?
That I wanted to be on my own
Be livin by myself,
born an Home grown!!!
Daddy ran away,
whilst
Momma died,an past away
Ain't it funny
Life be like a play
Don't go the way you say
Just layed out on a piece of paper
Script for the actors',an vision for the creator
That it gonna involve nominations',fame,an glory
An oscars' too
But ehh you don't have a clue
That Id be lying in the gutter,cryin to myself
Believing that i wanted to live actually live with myself
Days' go on by,just campin with who I can
Friends',relatives,isn't that sad?
Got to the life line with a blade in my hand
Either slit my neck,vain in my moutherfukin hand
Tried it few times,got caught few times too
But that didn't stop me
All it taught me was
Not to be sloppy,an to not let my guard down
Who knows' what could happen in life
I don't an I'm sure you don't neither
Only thing that kept me from cuttin myself open
Was been a God believer! Thank you lord

(Chorus)
Be careful what you'd wish for
Cause it might come true
An you ain't gon know
What could do to ya life
An what it could do to you
I wished for been by myself
Now I'm sleeping with skeletons
In my closet,fending for myself

(Chorus)
Be careful what you'd wish for
Cause it might come true
An you ain't gon know
What could do to ya life
An what it could do to you
I wished for been by myself
Now I'm sleeping with skeletons
In my closet,fending for myself

My life I been on my own,no family just friends'.The only thing that kept me going was God
Dedicated to my foster Mum-Isabella Davis-I love you