What You Never Knew I meant to Say (Official Apology)

I know you might not understand but this is something I need to say
Please don't tell me not to I really feel bad
Perhaps it's just me being hard on myself
But please do this for me just listen to what I say
This is my official apology for the wrong I have done
I was only thinking of me when I took your heart for a run
It had been so long since someone looked at me the way you do
I did something so wrong I lied to you
I just wanted to feel beautiful and loved even if it wasn't real
Your feelings were honest but I just played a role
You thought I was the best and you wouldn't rest till I knew how you felt
But I toyed with your head I was the one who said
All those things that made you think we were meant to be
But you loved me and I loved him
I was afraid of being alone
But I should have known better I should have been better than that
I'm just incredibly insecure for being so self-assured
Sometimes we all just need someone who likes us more than we like them
But I just used you I really didn't mean to
But you made me feel so good and I lost sight of what was right
I'd take it back I swear I would
I hope you don't hate me cause it took me so long to see
The result of my actions
I may have been happy but who wouldn't be?
It felt so good to have you gush over me
But I hurt you and that was the last thing I wanted to do
So this is my official apology
Please, forgive me