Thirteen words a minute?

Okay first things first. I’m sorry. I screwed up. Once again I left it to the last minute. I mean it wasn’t just that I left it to the last minute. I’ve just…been thinking a lot more recently. And I’ve been realizing a few things. It’s the last week of my academic life and I’ve just finally realized that I’m not a genius. I mean if I was, then my grades would be a lot higher. That’s just common sense. I don’t know why this didn’t get through to me before. I was sort of in a bubble. Genius is not the measure of talent; it’s the work you produce. And through sheer laziness I’ve completely passed my self by. And I feel so…disappointed. Notice how I’m using simple words. Its cause I’m not cheating anymore. I’m not left clicking, scroll down to synonyms and then selecting the longest or cleverest sounding word anymore. And I know you the reader have read like only this far only once but you should know that whilst I’m free-styling I’ve read my own work must be erm five times I think. There you go I’ve just taken a deep breath and read the first line again. God! Even as I type this I’m thinking this guy is seriously vain. And just so you know I’m still supposed to be doing the dissertation. As I look to the clock its 04:47.God I did it again. I just find it such a great pleasure reading my own work. Jees I’m sorry for putting you through this. Right now I’m thinking either I’m going to come across as a pretentious annoying little somebody or as the more romantic side of me is imagining the reader going oh I’m like that. Yeh he’s actually talking about something deep that I do as well, you know? I mean truthfully I don’t know! There I exhaled another breath. Do you wanna know something. You know the difference between writing and speech is that with writing, the writer cannot fix his sentences and re-say something to explain what he meant. That’s why the rules are so much harsher in writing. I mean I understand that they have to be but sometimes I think the pedantics or what ever you call people who are pedantic, hold up let me use the spell checker here cause the red wiggly line came…anyway I think sometimes they take it too far. I mean as writers, what’s our job. To tell a story. To make people feel something. To make people aware of something. I personally think a lot of writers fail because they’re in love with their writing. But these people aren’t necessarily bad writers, I bet they could write brilliant prose. But the thing is good prose keeps the teacher happy, the reader doesn’t notice. There’s nothing special about writers this applies to all forms of the arts. Don’t believe me ask Spielberg, Hitchcock etc, ask the great directors and they could talk about the mise-en-scene, the lighting etc but my imaginary friend whose like watched a million films and totally loves the format, he don’t notice nothing. Its not that he’s not particularly clever, his very intelligent. You put stuff like character development and he can talk as if he knew it all. But truthfully that just means he hasn’t been paying to much attention which means it’s a pretty dismal film. Have you read a catcher in the rye? You should do. It’s a good book. I’m just looking out of my window, dawns just broken out. And now I’m just lying on my bed, thoughts running through my head. I can see that angel video with Robbie William, the guy who left Take That and you know which song it is, it’s the sad song that summed up the Diana death year. Oh sorry, I respect her as well, its Princess Diana, was it Spencer? Nope that was her maiden name. Was it Windsor? Oh just clicked on my browser Opera and googled the name and got info, from who2 biography on answer.com Its prince Charles and lot of others names and finally Windsor. I clicked on some link and guess who this is: Elizabeth Alexandra Mary Windsor. Okay quick question, how come Charles inherited his mothers surname and not his father’s, Mountbatten? Its 05:24 now. Look back at the last time stamp. That’s how long it took in real time to write from the first to the this one. Lets see …that’s thirty seven minutes. To write… highlight, select tools, word count…487 words. Thirty seven minutes and 487 words. Start, programs, accessories, calculator= 13.1. thirteen words a minute? The last sentence is about thirteen words. It took on average sixty seconds to write some thing like that, on average. Okay I’m tied now, I gonna turn a movie on and fall asleep. It’s the last day of uni and I’m probably not going to see anyone ever again. And on this day I write this. My eyes hurt, my work lies unfinished. I’m going to wake up in four hours and get the haircut that my hair is crying for, shower and that’ll be that. Thirteen words? This is pure coincidence as well but that’s my lucky number. So…there you go. by. Ps. I love writing. Oh I have to get this off my chest, blairs leaving speech today, I mean yesterday v.good but that ending??? Who thought of that? It was like so abrupt. This time I going to end it for sure…I love writing……….Peace out….eh no…end? Errr Good luck????? Oh I feel much better now after good spell of writing. Lots of love…bye