I Am I Said

Cherry

By Silver Spun Sand

Thu, 21 May 2015
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*I am, I said, to no one there,
and no one heard at all,
not even the chair."  Neil Diamond
 
I am no vegetable nor am I unconscious;
merely sleeping. I have lost the power of speech –
limbs, albeit, paralysed,
but I have not lost my mind.
 
I wish to be fed and yet you remove
my feeding tube even against my wishes.  I, 
who am taking too long to die.
 
Never think, not for one second, I am unaware.
 
I am a bed-blocker. I am a statistic.
 
I am a strain on resources – too expensive
to keep alive.  
 
“Try to be realistic No one lives forever,” they tell her.
 
“Excuse me!” I yell. “Forgive me, please, if I try.”
 
But no one listens...except my wife.
I am the one she vowed to love in sickness
and in health.
 
I am her silent prayers, the futile tears she cries.
 
I am her morning, noon and night...
 
I am but flesh and blood and pray to god
I yet may light a spark, somewhere deep beneath 
a carer's mercy...
 
a crimson gem...shining, ever brightening
in the cold sting of evening air.
 
I am the sound of the crow outside my window
that knows life was interrupted here.
 
“For the best…for the best,” it caws.
 
I am that lie.
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Comments

Submitted by Philip Sidney on

Heartbreaking and so frightening.

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on

Indeed, Philip, indeed.  My thanks fo you for reading, and for your empathy.

Tina

 

Submitted by Bee on

Perfectly expressed in the given voice. And it is sad, but above all, scary that these choices are made beyond a person's will because they are no longer 'useful'. Thought provoking poem.

Bee

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on

Many thanks, Bee.  There was much in the media on this tack yesterday, and it brought back many memories for me that I hoped I had forgotten.  Not so, unfortunately.

Your thoughts, always inspired Bee.  Hope the sun is shining on you today.  It should be.

Tina

 

Submitted by tibi popovici on

"I am a statistic.", great sentence. Wondering if we are not all statistics, for others statistics.

After all Tina, should not be so bad to die, as was not too bad to get alive.

I think we can use to it..., after we tried it a couple of times smiley

Too close to my heart!

T.

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on

Thanks, Tibi.  As ever, your words are gems. Thank you for them.

Tina