The Monster

I stand and I look

At the creature before

The monsters' arrived and its' broke through my door

It barges on past

Impatient but weak

It isnt too long before it will speak

" Well what have we here?"

It cackles with glee

I look for escape but there's nowhere to flee

The invisible hold

it has over my soul

Has locked to my core and its story unfolds

" Take a look |" says the monster

It knows all my fears

It stamps on my dreams and rejoices my tears

I waveringly gaze

Into reflection unknown

We face it together but I feel so alone

It plays with my hair

Stares into my eyes

It looks at my chest, follows down to my thighs

It smirks at my lips

But it smiles at my flaws

It traces my scars with the tips of its claws

Tears that threaten

Cascade down my face

Its threatened my thoughts and invaded my space

Satisfied it smiles

And makes for the door

Just when I feel I cant take anymore

It leaves and it waves

As it tracks out of sight

And I know it has won at least for tonight.

It will return in a heartbeat

When confidence is low

The Monsters' took hold and it wont let me go

I can smile for the public

I can laugh like a clown

But my feelings get blacker and its wearing me down

I often wonder 'bout

Beautiful release

For a time when I will have nothing but peace

But the fight in me still 

Keeps clinging right on

Cos I know it would laugh if it knew I was gone

So I raise my head high

I laugh and I smile

And it keeps it at bay at least for a while

I know it will linger

But its still oh so weak

The trick is to let it have no chance to speak

For the monster Depression

Is hard to control

With its icy grip on my mind and my soul

But it won't try forever

To make me commit

Im through with its' games, I have to admit

It can try all it wants

To make me concede

If Im strong and Im happy his grip I'll impede

But its hard to keep it

From knocking down doors

When Depression has got you in the grips of its jaws.