all my love

I am sorry it has come to this… that I have to write this, that I couldn’t see you… I am sorry for a lot of things; I hope you know that.

I honestly didn’t think it would happen so quickly… that the situation would be so desperate and that so much would be at stake. But more fool me, I guess; you always said it would happen like this, I always laughed. Shit… and now look at us.

I’m going to miss you — know that much — more than I could ever say, but maybe —perhaps? — I can straighten this out. Maybe we can get back to a normal life?

I hope so. Oh, God, do I hope so.

Please take good care of the boy while I’m gone; he is going to need someone, I think. Maybe this will be better for him? I hate to say it, but maybe it will? I don’t know. Just tell him I love him… that I will miss him… that I’m sorry. Just don’t lie to him about me, please.

I never wanted to leave you like this… with so little, so suddenly. It was never my plan… Certain things have a way of happening, though, it seems.

Jesus.

I wish I do something else other than just writing this, that I could do more… But as it is I can only do this. Time is short.

I promise I won’t forget you. Nor what you said to me last:

‘Milk’,
‘Cereal’,
‘Flour’,
‘Lettuce’,
‘Eggs’,
‘Bananas’
‘Toothpaste’,
‘Toilet Paper’
And ‘Cheese’, too…

I wont forget it again. Not after all of this. I promise. I know that won’t sound like much, but I do: I promise.

And maybe… God willing… I’ll see you in an hour or so.

All my love,

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This was for the challenge: 'write a goodbye letter to your spouse'