After all these years, you still remember

After swift time has passed under the bridge,

relieved itself, and tossed me back out,

you still remember my insecure sin

and gum me to it as if that was all I was.

 

I know it is hard, and you probably think that I had an undue influence...

what he did and what I said are complete opposites of what I meant.

 

Yes, I apologize and I apologize. But how much must a Korean apologize to you?

When will you be satiated? Some Asians spend their whole lives apologizing for small sins.

"For our small sins, they ask excessive prices." (Baudelaire)

 

I was totally insane with a multi-personality complex.

I put on the faces of celebrities cause I could not deal with my wounded face

which was like an Elephant Man's face.

 

The stars above us quietly watch us

as we rumble and quarrel...

but Madness is no excuse. I have gone in and out of madness

and come out more aware and more intact.

 

So what makes you judge over me?

I was deeply hurt by WASP jocks and wealthy people

so I took it out on women.

I did not even know what I was doing. 

It was the wrong thing to do, but for 20 years or more, I've treated women with respect.

My inferiority neurosis and feeling like a "neuter" in front of women is all gone.

I have changed.

 

I'm sure you see many other Asian men with the same problem.

 

After all these years, you remember me NOT for opening you up to Hellenistic Hollywood

which is an extension of Greek theatre,

after the soldiers saw the play, they went off to war,

having gotten rid of their "pity and fear" of another city state or a foreign state.

Aristotle's analysis of Greek theatre is part of the imperialistic machine

and it is embedded in Hollywood.

It's liberal and well as conservative.

 

It seems that Hollywood and Politics may disappear altogether

and foreigners will overtake this country.

 

Why do you find my Neoconservativism so puzzling? 

Susan Sontag and Allan Bloom were also often accused of being Liberals

but were not so.

 

Why do you find it so puzzling that I'm Korean and a Neoconservative? 

Neoconservatism is what links East Asian and America and Western Europe

much more than liberalism which has descended into anarchy.

 

So answer questions with questions and stylize yourself to protect yourself.

The innocent have always been slaughtered.

Participate in the world but be not of the World.

And please, let the past be the past and the future be the future.