Missing You

Don't leave me
in the rain In the wind In the snow
you have meant so much to me,
your voice
a spiritual whisper, a slipper of
delight,
don't footprint me
knowing how I need you
love you
revere you.

So many days without you
so many days of drinking, seeking
the spirit,
killing myself, killing my mind and soul,
seeing myself as a failure

my love for you is real
not a theory
not a model
of how things ought to be
or are,
you ignite the flame of my soul,
rain down pleroma, dance
starlight, hair radiant gestures
to stars singing home to heaven.

Beautiful and kind you are
and so true
so close to Elohim and Iehovah...
don't leave me
let the Door to God
open once again.