Why I Write 2

I don't really enjoy going out to places anymore. I don't enjoy talking. I often find myself assuming an English accent to avoid stupid and unpleasant conversations. People seem to assume the worst about me. I flirt a little, I'm a womanizer while they use the most vulgar words imaginable in terms of women. I find myself accused of things because I act so American so I find myself "building walls and fences" to protect myself.

The workingclass in Anglo-Saxon cultures are so vulgar (English and American). George Orwell talked about this in his own work, "Why I write." He lists this as one of the reasons why the workingclass in America and England never rebelled. Live and Let Live.

With the Puritanical push in language, people seem to love words like "fuck, shit, etc." Phallic words I hear in country clubs, etc... the quality of life is horrible. They're trying to get rid of "eros" in the language, but eros is coming back in the phallic language which the Puritans also want to get rid of. One day, only words like "Hello," "Goodbye," OK" will be politically correct and Puritan enough for everyone. To avoid any sexual harassment suits, "beautiful, stellar, sexy, etc" will go out the door, but the man who uses all the vulgar words and commits the act is often saved, treasured by the corporation or sports team because he is so talented. Hard to find replacements. What is the point of all this? I find that, in writing, I do find some pleasure and quality of life. I find my senses and my mind again. In society, I almost have to watch my every word and dot all my eyes although I'm trying to fit in and act like everyone else in this morass of "excuse me" "stupidity" of the world. It's funny... I think that surrounding this culture of the alpha-males, America often acts like a post-colonial, colonized nation-state.

Of course, ignorance of foreign cultures is something that American and Italian artists have often noted. "The Sheltering Sky, The Last Emperor..." etc. significate meaning in the sense that American and English ignorance of the tribals laws of other countries and their overstress of the importance of education of foreigners as if they were mere students of the West. Even a good, trained reading of ancient Greek lierature should tell the reader of the primal tension between tribal and national laws, rituals, etc.