Healing Journal #2 Notes on the 'Being State'

Notes on the 'Being State'

In continuation of yesterday's contemplation, let us ask the question: How do I come to know that the 'Being state' is the place I really have wanted to be all along? Is it through what spiritual teachers have called 'Grace?' If so, then what is Grace even? And if it is not through grace then through what means does this knowing come?

Let us explore this. Through my own contemplation and through also the suggestion of my teachers/guides, I can answer in the following way: A lot of this knowing comes by bringing ourselves - through willingness to explore - to the edge of the limit of the knowable realm.

This is quite profound to realize in itself, just that simple fact: There is, indeed, a limit what the mental realms are able to know! Say that out loud to yourself to see if this feels true to some part inside you. There is limit to the mental realms because the mental realms are designed to only know through concepts, past experiences, and limited imagination based on past experiences. This is not a fact we pay attention to or realize very often – this limit of the mind/brain.

Another way of talking about the limit of the knowable realms, is that we often try to force the feeling of 'knowing' through the mental mental/brain level of human perception, not realizing that 'knowing' can also exist as simply a 'direct feeling.' This knowing is a knowing of ourselves and reality that exists as a completely non-verbal intuitive sense and this is actually what already guides our deepest aspects of being. So its not something special in that sense. We have all experienced it.

Because these words are coming from a brain/mental level, writing these words can be incredibly confusing to explain what I am explaining, yet very helpful. You might be asking yourself: “well gee, if this form of knowing comes in a completely non-verbal, non-mental, … well it’s that just the same thing as 'not knowing?'”

Yes! It is the same thing. “Knowing (as a direct experience)” and “being OK with not knowing (as a mental story/interpretation of reality)” are one in the same!

You could even take it a step further and use the following question as a cohen: “Can I even know that I don't know anything?” ...hint *in whispered voice* the answer is: don't try to answer it, just sit with the question! He he he.

But I digress (purposefully, of course), … let me continue.

So the question is:
Am I willing to be brought to the edge of the mind to experience being met by the being-ness that is always present but often not experienced directly?

We have to some degree be willing to be at this edge and then trip, fall, or choose to move beyond our sense of separateness. It can help to have various avenues to come to this opportunity. It can happen by accident. It can happen through the force of evolution by running out of other options. It can help sometime to be guided there by someone or something that has already been there and come back to show the way. Sometimes it can help to understand why we are afraid of it. By understanding why we are afraid of it, we can allow the mind to understand it to the best of its limited ability so that it can be willing to come to the edge of itself. In the end it just happens or doesn't.. and in the end it always happens, sooner or later, because in our deepest core its a place we remember on a non-verbal level. It is indestructible and often we simply need to test the waters a bit to know that it is completely safe.