I wanted to be your saviour

Yes, I admit it
For a moment, for months I wanted to be your saviour
I wanted to be the one who held you and made you forget how to cry
I wanted to be the one who you loved so much
Like the others were merely strangers interrupting your life
I wanted you to be the one who dug me out of my early grave
And taught me how to fly
To rest my head on a cloud, surrounded by angels
To hold your hand and pick you up

But now I just want to drop you
Now I could easily just let you fall and watch you try to pick yourself up
Only to be swallowed by the Earth
Planted like a seed with no oxygen for you to breath
Forever rooted to the spot, while others simply pass you by
How tragic, how realistic life can be
Forgive me
I’m glad you won’t fly with anyone else for a while

I hate the curse disabling both our wings
I hate the chain around my neck which chokes if I get too high
Brings me crashing back down to the ground
So fucking painful, it almost hurts
I wanted to be your saviour
I would’ve let you be the hero if this was my problem
I would have let you love me
But no, there’s no hero here
No saviour to save us from this curse
There is only the two of us
Crawling in opposite directions
Our broken wings dragging behind
While the angels soar over our heads