When he hits me

They tell me to leave him and run away.
They even make plans for me as if they will work.
" Pretend to sleep and creep out"
"Leave when he is not home"
"You have to get out of their!"
It's not as easy as it may seem.
He was ones my escape
My tower
No one could hurt me in his arms, because I was safe
Now the word echoes through my mind, as if I did not know it's meaning
When life gave a chance to love, I took it
I was leaving a dream.
As if it were a movie
Little did I know, It was meant to be horror.
It's easy to watch and feel pity
But what when your the victim.
That rush of fear when he walks towards you
that tingle in your in skin
not knowing if he will caress my face
or hit me again
One day he loves me
The other he hates me
he changes in seconds
But my fear forever stands
And when he hits me
Ones is not enough
He will strike ones, then again and again
Until i'm on the floor in a pool of my own blood streaming down my nose and open wounds
It's like his heroin
And when I do try to leave he tells me loves me too much to let me go.
I DON'T BELIEVE HIM!!!
But i have to stay.
I'm a coward. I cant run away
What if he finds me?
I'm a prisoner in my own home.
Worst thing of all is not being able to cry after he struck me
Because I can't feel
I can't express
My emotions are gone
And all that I want is revenge
or maybe
just maybe
a chance to escape