Talking to myself ( a old lady looking back at her life)

Tick
tonk, tick tonk dame clock. You know each tick and that second-hand
goes and another bit of life goes. But then again oh well I don't
know. You know if I close my eyes and I can see all the faces that
use to come here in this house. Where my stick. One two three up I go and sit by the window. Is it a sign of madness talking to myself.
Well, the only person I can get mad at is me. Let see what going on
in the world today, ah there the postman waving, anything for me
today no. I like it when it comes its just junk mail but its
something to read. Now, who next ah yes that family down the road.
ah two little kiddies who always wave at me. And their mum. people
passing by. No one-stop any more. Oh its getting dark, time to draw
the curtains hate shutting out of what light left. But better to be
safe than sorry. Oh silly me its only 11 am. Mind must of gone for a
walk then.

You
know I never be thinking I be on my own, you don't when you're young.
All the dreams we had, look at you looking back at me there in a
picture. remember when oh when we first met at that dance, you said
I was the best looking in the place, ah how we dance. And that night
you walk me home. And after a time we got married. what a happy day
that was with friends and family all gone now. We were happy and in
love. I often wonder what he would of be like. No one tells you how
it feels that was a terrible night. I remember they said he just fell
asleep when he was born. I remember you saying if there a god why on
earth. I think a bit of me die that day in the graveyard in the pouring
rain on that cold winter day. I remember we came back here and you
said best not to talk of it too much, but I know sometimes I could
hear you crying. We busy ourselves with different things we just
carry on. People would say why don't you try for another. it was not
meant to be us being a mum and dad.

Tick
tick that dame clock. Oh, the party we would have in here funny hats and the like. Christmas time was always sad when children came to the
house. We love them. Then one day you say you had a cough just a
little one. Well, that little cough got worse you went to the
doctors. appointment here and there up and down the Hospital. What
for it did no good in the end. I remember that night you held my
hand and told me to be brave and that you were going to see our baby
soon and that you take care of him. You told me you love me. I
kiss you goodbye and held you in my arms and we said goodbye.

Just
me and you the nurse and our nephew

at
the funereal it was like a dream. all the people saying this and
that. its funny time goes so fast one minute your hear then next
gone.

Tick
tick oh it's getting dark, I do wish someone would come. We see our
nephew now and then but he lives so far away and next door pop in.
but there not here at night when the silences is almost too much to
bear. But then I look at you and I know you're waiting for me.

Time
for bed get a book. oh, I got a tv put that one for some sound.

I
hear the birds what that sound. It my phone. Hello, I say and a voice
said it me aunty how are you to just to let you know we
coming down today. And if you don't mind can we stay. we looking for
a house to be near you.

Oh
what joy that brings.

Days
have gone by. there all came down now the house is full of fun and
laugh once again. I am very blessed and lucky.

Years
gone by. oh we all been so very happy but now I am getting tired, I
hear the birds. hi aunty I hear, the room fill we so many holding my
hand and brushing my hair. This is so much love. I hear my name look
over people are crying why. Oh my I see my love and a young man.he said it time .he moves he hand to mind and I whisper to everyone
good night and goodbye thank you for bringing me sunshine in my life.
And with that, I close my eyes