Love At First Sight

He is the type of person I'm looking for. But, is he seeking for a woman like me? The woman he's seeking for isn't me! Well, I never asked what type of woman he's looking for. If he tells me than maybe I might have an better understanding of what he wants. Just in case it's not me. Is it me? Me being scared to ask him questions that's on this subject. I never ask because I feel I'm going to be rejected. I'm always rejected. Not by him but, in the past I have been rejected. He's the type of person who every woman likes. This makes me jealous! Who is he, is the question? He's my friend but I feel I can't be a friend towards him. He's complicated! I want to express my feelings to him so he can get a better understanding of me. He cares for me as I can see. But, do he like me the way I like him? I trust him more than any one else. I feel I'm doing too much just to get his attention. He's a good man. He speaks about the positive things in life. He works and goes to church. But, that's not all. I want to earn his heart and his friendship. Is his heart already taking by someone else? I hope not! His heart being taken will break me into pieces. Something is telling me that I should be with him. Is that something telling him the samething. I'm always getting upset when I think of him. Me not knowing him for a long time, makes it even more difficult. I haven't felt this way before about anyone. This is a different feeling for me. I want to better myself for him. I want to stay positive and not speak negativity towards him. I want to be a better person so that I attract him in a good way. I don't want to attract him just by my body and looks. I want him to notice me of who I really am. Does he even notice me the way I notice him? The way he talks can easily tell me how good of a person he is. I studied him with my eyes maybe that's why I'm catching this feeling for him. I studied his walk, the way he talks and his eyes. Pushing him away won't make it any better. I have issues in my life that I only feel comfortable telling him about. He just won't tell me about his. I don't want this friendship to be a one way thing. He listens to my problems and says he cares for me. How come I can't do the same for him? Maybe I should back away because he doesn't feel what I feel, then again I shouldn't. He once told me ¨If I speak negative things then negative things will happen. If I speak positive things then positive things will happen.¨ He probably thinks that I don't listen to him, but I do! Falling in love with him on first sight, is complicated. I wish he felt for me the way I felt for him. It's weird but, I'm not doubting myself any longer. He's a good person and I want him to see it too. I appreciate him being there for me in this short period of time.