Falling from myself

Ever know what it feels like to watch a wall.
Wonder whether someone knows how it feels.
Your feeling like that it wanted to fall over dream
I left last night after my scary dream - hit my head -
On the floor, past the past, onto waking scream.

Wonder morning I left I heard what you said
Marching on and away walking behind I heard
Myself knowing it wasn't for real. Repeating,
Knowing I shouldn't. Kept saying the same words
Over and over. Fell beneath you as you walk away

I know you'll just walk away. Spinning and spinning
I wake from the. What you just woke me up from.
Woke me up from, and your not there. I wonder why
I am still surprised when you are gone. I am still waiting
Wanting your return. Screaming inside I came from you.

You left me there, saying your not there. Nothing I can give.
Too old to need my love, too old to want my care, too tired
To share. And I wonder why I came at all when all along
I have known that you make me feel like I don't belong.
And the words never fit the sentence, like the face doesn't fit

The fact. And the child doesn't need its mother just like a frame
Doesn't need a dream. And as I fell I stopped to wonder or maybe
I have just begun to stop the wonder. Knowing now I am all-alone.