Growing Pains

Not ready

Need less

Love more

Not ready

Yet

Love Fear

Tears at me

Pulls me

All ways

Not ready

Still

A ship

Tossed by

Hormonal tempest

The shrew

Not tamed

Not ready

Yet

Heartbeats

Hard beats

Pound

Permissive flanks

Salty liquids

Swamp with

Poisonous medicine

Caustic potions

Not ready

Still

Bare

Defenceless

bungee jumping

soul's abyss

spiritual freefall

seeking

peace

beauty

deliverance

from chaos

Not ready

Yet

No tantric mating

With the universe

Not ready

Still

growing pains

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