Help

Seeking help is never about weaknesses. It is never about shameful stories. 

All that you worried about is your psychological safety. Your feelings when you talk about it to people. Do you turn to the right people? Do you first tell them what you are really feeling? Do you have trust with the confidentiality on your problems and stories?

Seeking help is always the right thing to do if you really need someone to depend on. 

Don't be scared. You don't have to think about the consequences on pouring your stories out to them. Its all about your heart right now. Your soul. Yourself. Its all ABOUT YOU. Don't matter about the world or other people, put yourself to the place where you feel safe. Make yourself at home, be comfortable. 

It is alright to cry. There is nothing bad about crying. No. Let it all out. All those darknesses and the lost hope you tucked inside just set them free. Let it be no more. Be free, live!

Help yourself honey. If you would not help yourself, who will? 

There is always strength within you. It's just that you've been staying at that dark hole for too long. Get up honey. Crawl if you need to. Go and seek help. Hope is always there. God won't turn you down, it was just your devil side made you believe that way. Trust me honey, your happiness is awaiting. Your serenity is in front if you. 

It is He who sent down tranquillity into the hearts of the believers that they would increase in faith along with their [present] faith. And to Allah belong the soldiers of the heavens and the earth, and ever is Allah Knowing and Wise. (48:4)

"I'm too tired of being like this. No matter how much I've tried to tell people about this, it always doesn't work out. It always doesn't turn out to the way that I wanted them to be. And I don't received any of the things that I wanted to hear! The things that I need!", cried Casie feeling so distressed that she could feel the headache strongly on her head. 

Never forget to seek Allah first before anyone else. I mean it. It might sounds cliche or whatnot but honestly if you don't depend on Him with your trust, whatever in this world won't turn out to the way that you expected. 

And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. (2:186)

And We have already created man and know what his soul whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein (50:16)

People always underestimate His power and take on your emotions just to fullfill what your heart desires. 

Even if you wanted to seek help from the right people (your family, your bestfriends or to whoever you trust), you need to at least move your heart to the place where you tell Allah that you seeking from people's help. 

Remember what Allah says;

And those you call upon besides Him are unable to help you, nor can they help themselves. (7:197)

Also,

Tell Him not because you don't trust Him, but you are searching for answers and you believe that His signs would direct to you. Because at that moment, you will feel triggered on something and whispered to your heart that you know He gives to you the signs that you need.

I know there are a lot of times in your life that you keep on making du'a until the time you almost given up because you still feel sad. Do you think that the sadness could go away overnight? Even the Prophet s.a.w. also was meant to struggle a lot more than you could ever think of. Did his sadness go away after a prayer? No. 

[Remember] when you asked help of your Lord, and He answered you, "Indeed, I will reinforce you with a thousand from the angels, following one another." (8:9)

look at what Allah says honey. He even send angels down to look after us!

And Allah made it not but good tidings and so that your hearts would be assured thereby. And victory is not but from Allah . Indeed, Allah is Exalted in Might and Wise. (8:10)

You need to understand and appreciate that the pain is the only way humans could learn from. When negative feelings are exerted, you realise even more. You will be thoughtful even more. You will be the wise person to the moment when you just don't even know yourself anymore because you're too amazing! Too good to be true you made this!

Seek from Allah, tell Him. He knows what to do to you honey. He will address you the perfect person you wanted to seek help from. Be brave. Don't be lazy to ask from Allah. 

Seek help from Allah (SWT) and do not loose heart, and if anything (in the form of trouble) comes to you, don’t say: If I had not done that, it would not have happened so and so, but say: Allah (SWT) did that what he had ordained to do, and your “If” opens the (gate) for the satan.[Muslim]

Seek help. This should be continuum so that you will always put yourself on the right track. 

I would give you a hug if I could :) love you

Acknowledgements:

http://understandquran.com/invite-allahs-help-experience-wonder.html